Saturday, April 26, 2014

Sims 3

I must say I've been quite addicted in Sims 3 after knowing that I could download the Store contents plus many mods which makes the game easier/faster.

I have also made some tuning mods on my own.

I tried to build a futuristic house using the theme of Into The Future and I think I created one which seems fabulous I should say.

Some screens should speak about it:

Exterior
Mini Kitchen + Dining
Hallway from entrance

Friday, April 11, 2014

Weakness

I compared, I feared, I backed off.

Yes, I was very used to comparing with people, from appearance to intelligence to beliefs and opinions. I loved to challenge and proving I am right.

Till now, I still am but just not so much. It's just appearance, intelligence and beliefs.

Yes, however I see this as a weakness of mine, a very profound one. As I age I know such behaviour is intolerant, therefore I started backing out and pushing people away. I am good at that.

I figured both ways leads me to hell. I couldn't stand comparing with people because I fear I may lose the person close to me. Backing off lay waste to my own benefit where I won't get to know anyone as period goes.

Then again, if I do not compare I feel I may lose out silently and if I don't back out I may end up in a heated argument.

I am still torn in between. Those changes I am dealing with are difficult, really difficult. At the same time I am trying to tear down this damn wall of 'somestrongelement'-ium. At the same time, I want to get in the battle.

So what should I choose? The peace path or the killing path? For which I know I was on the killing path but it did not work out and now I have been trying to walk into the peace path.

Having such characteristic, I tend to think that everyone else is the same. I fear asking for assistance because I 'know' people have their own battles to fight. Such battles to fight using their own skills and knowledge where they aren't eager to impart.

I don't know.

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

Health

This is my third time falling sick this semester.
And worse of all it all comes from the same cause - stomach.

First was due to a bowl of laksa from campus. Second was due to some food from campus and third was literally due to no-food day. Yup, it is indeed all stomach alright.

Because of this, I have to, really have to find out the root of this issue as I know a healthy stomach would not have pertain to such resort. This time I probably got it right (hopefully), without the aid of a doctor once again.

Honestly I can never trust a doctor anymore because of the country I live in. Well this reason itself is enough actually but there are others. Like, most medications given doesn't really 'cure' the root of the problem. Of course they do solve the current outbreak, just quicker.

I've realised for the very past years since my Polytechnic days, my first episode of a stomach.. ulcer? flu? problem didn't get me thinking. I just thought oh it came just because I ate some wrong food. However, I must say that was probably the start of all problems.

I love researching, and I did. At first I was told to take Antacid as a solution but hey wait, those are for acid reflux and heartburn mainly which I don't exhibit. The symptoms I exhibited are:

• Bloating stomach (most of the time), even small meals
• Constant burping, even hours after meal
• Gas which smells (talk about embarrassment...)
• Bad breath - this is forever, around since ... ugh

Checked thoroughly with information, and it seems to be LOW STOMACH ACID. With this problem, it leads to protein deficiency. Researched for protein deficiency and I found that the symptoms which I AM EXHIBITING are:

• Excessive Dry Skin
• Ridges in finger and toe nails (in my case only fingernails)
• Constant craving for snacks

It seems to add up alright,
low stomach acid -> protein deficiency -> problems with external areas .

Excessive Dry Skin, yes literally to the fact that holding to a metal pole has NO FRICTION AT ALL.

Well I went out to local pharmaceutical stores to check out for Betaine HCL which is the supplement for low stomach acid but to no avail. Everywhere they are selling Antacid... Resorted to online store iHerb and purchased one, hopefully it will be delivered within 3 days and I could start restoring my health. If all goes right.