Socialising

Had this thought suddenly and have to blog it down before it goes away…

Socialising, it has always been something that I fear. Even till now it still is.

There had been a few reasons why I chose not to talk to people or remove myself from conversations most of the time.

1. I realised I have the tendency to make people hate me when I speak too much truth. Or maybe it's just straightforward I'd say. As I believe when I have to speak, I give only information and hardly for the fun and humour.

2. I always feel that there's a quick microseconds of judging when a conversation is going on. It's easy to make enemies than to make friends.

3. I don't see the need of a conversation unless necessary.

These 3 are the reasons I could have thought of in that sudden moment. There's more and I am sure of it.

Bane of An Engineer

As the title says,

I think being an engineer is really much of a pain sometimes.

My iPhone 4 is the best example. I feel that this 2 years old iPhone 4 that I've been holding on to seems to have became my 'engineering project'. On certain weekends, one of the parts seems to break.

Actually, I have been trying to fix the proximity sensor ever since the first knock-off screen replacement, which was $170, after the original cracked. I remember I once changed the screen to a white coloured and the proximity sensor worked fine! But the screen wasn't IPS tech whereby looking at the side would cause the colours to be inverted.

Back to the proximity sensor, parts always broke due to me trying to fix that particular problem, especially the screen.

So now, before this weekend, I had 2 parcels which contains the UV filter for the proximity sensor and also a battery replacement.

I was hoping that after installing the UV filter and then replacing the new battery, the proximity sensor would work and the battery would be good as new.. who knows it turns out this big big problem...

Yes, that's the battery connector. Obviously without that I can't insert my battery and thus the phone would not power on.

The problem isn't really that annoying but I realised that one of the solder pad, which is actually a conductive material has been ripped off together with the battery connector. Now that is annoying. Without that pad, the circuit is broken.

I've had success soldering the other 3 pins (4 pins total), and the phone would power on fine but it wouldn't charge. So if it can't charge, the battery is totally useless, together with the new one I bought.

I read that there is a small circle behind that pad and I could just solder the pin on to that. Problem is my soldering iron's tip diameter is too large! Couldn't fit and there's a high chance to damage other components if I were to force it.

So now, if I really have to restore the battery, I have to buy a smaller tip diameter soldering iron to fix this problem....

Girls…

First of all this post is not directed to all girls. 

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Understanding them are nearly impossible in this current and obviously future era. 

Sure you still get marriage and love. But the responsibility to keep those does not even exist. 

Girls these day, they post hundreds and thousands of photos of self-portraits on Instagram, Facebook, Tagged plus many other social networks and all for what purpose? To receive likes and comments and just that's it. It's fucking obvious that guys who looks through these photos will go 'sexy', 'cute', 'pretty', 'adorable', 'beautiful', etc, then comment exactly as what is on their mind. 

After which the girls starts to get bored, irritated and not to forget those horny guys and then the cycle continues. So all these leads to nothing right?

If a guy with legit intent wants to go after that girl, and the girl thinking it's just another irritating comment, her mind will go like 'fuck off'. Yea, whatever. 

Girls, why appear yourself on social network when you have no purpose at all? If attention seeking and those good feeling of 'likes' are what you want, you are better off doing chores at home. 

Thank you.

Too much on my mind

Yea well, as the title mentions, there's just too much on my mind. 

I am always thinking:

•Why am I so strange?

•Why do I have difficulty in breathing at random times?

•Why does my thought of worry goes on and on for hours without stop, causing insomnia on me?

•Why do I stay away from the opposite gender all the time and the only time I am drawn is due to my hormones?

I just don't understand. わかりません。

Did I choose to be different or was I chosen to be different?

I seem to look at things at a totally different perspective. People sees trend as something to follow, I see trend as a flaw for humans. 

Of course, businesses makes use of trend to earn $, that's why in Singapore, trend is something you won't miss. 

To me, it makes the typical people not unique. Sure, there are some who doesn't follow them and that's pretty much 1 - 2% only?

Maybe love is a trend too, that's why I ain't in love. Lol. 

When it comes to entertainments, I only listen to Trance, maybe some Classical and Soundtracks and I am like, who in this country would listen to such genres really?

It makes me wonder, if people who likes a movie is due to what reasons? For me, it's the acting, the BGM, and the emotions. 

I don't know, I am just a freak possibly. Or I am just raised entirely different from everyone else. 

A Long Journey

It's been almost a year since my last post.

Not sure why I even stopped blogging. Might be due to the lack of will and also no internet in camp.

So, I am left with 2 months to ORD when July comes but I will be disrupting which means I will be left with 1 month. My last day will be on the 7th August 2013 and then start studying on the 12th.

Before that, I will be having my temp PES Review on the 1st July. I am currently on temporary PES E due to shin splint. As my specialist had told me that I have recovered from shin splint with the results of bone scan, I am worried that the medical board will put me back to my previous PES status which is B. From my personal feel, my shin still experience pain from daily walking and climbing of stairs and even idling. I do also have problems with prolonged activities such as prolonged walking, running and standing as my whole feet would get acutely painful with my whole limb getting numbness.

Anyways, I am quite eager to start my university studies actually. I would prefer some life over this daily routine and regimentation. Get to know, of course, some girls in which ever since my polytechnic life, I have never get to know much girls or get to really be friend with them. The only chance I have to interact with a girl is my occasional meet up with my clique but that only just one. My only roadblock now is that I have to take this test called the Qualifying English Test. Seriously, how long it has been since the last time I use English language to write something? It's totally rusty! Nevertheless, I feel that I may not write a good essay and embarrass myself. But never mind, the only thing I can tell myself to prevent myself from feeling that way is that no one knows each other, just finish off and go.

What I have been doing all these while during my weekend days off is just gaming and Android obsession on my HTC One X and my non-cam Huawei Honor.

The amount of adb, flashing of ROMs, editing of system apks, development, browsing of xda-developers and obsession over battery life and on screen time I've done is countless! What's even worse is that it's not just one Android but TWO! It's not that I didn't learn much with all these fiddling but what I've done is so repetitive!

Gaming wise, it seems that I look for more instant action and stories these days. I just can't stand games with too much lag, pauses and delays and also dialogues. I have also started playing Minecraft after an introduction from a new good friend in camp. I already know of such game but I didn't care much before. After his introduction and playing it, I realized I quite like it. Building blocks, who wouldn't like? Crafting, who wouldn't like? Plus after crafting something new, it feels like a mini achievement for discovering something new.

In light, I do still have some life. What I can do is to head out with my parents. That is the best I can do as a filial son.

Besides those I have mentioned, my favorite pastime is also to watch movies. Oblivion, Iron Man 3, Fast and Furious 6, Man of Steel and World War Z plus some yet to watch and upcomings like Now You See Me and Despicable Me 2.

This one is unforgettable, my virgin trip to Japan! A 4D3N of Kyoto with my in camp good friend. This is one free will trip with our own planning and choices of places to go. Also we randomly picked a hotel which was low cost and convenient. It was so convenient that just beside it is the subway station and a few steps away is the Nishiki market plus with all the food corners all over. Also there are bus stops just outside the entrance of the hotel where it is able to bring us to many of the tourism areas.

The best experience there is actually the weather. I can still remember the day where we went Kyoto central, the wind there was really cold like below 10°C and it was blazing. It's the kind of cold wind where you would want to face away instead of facing it. Really, it's just so cold that we have to enter a convenient store to keep warm. Such awesome event, it's so unlike Singapore where the temperature just gets increasingly hotter each year and have to spend so much on air conditioner.

I have always preferred a globally cold environment where you have to keep warm instead of a globally hot environment where entering air conditioned room will make one fall sick easily.

Well, that sums up my life ever since from my last post I guess.