Day of Math

Wednesday is probably the simplest day of my week.

1 hour of CS2100 and 2 hours of MA1521 lecture starting next week.
But for today, it's just the 2 hours of MA1521.

Today we learnt about Squeeze Theorem and IVT.
It's again, new methods to solve different types of question.

Maths has always been identify and apply for me.
Unless it's a proving question.

After lecture, I recapped with my friends on the first chapter, including Tutorial 1.
Sometimes, assisting friends really make my day.
It makes me feel special, needed in a way.

Such feeling would probably be enhanced if it's a girl who is asking for my help.
Of course, action of bias aside, this is just bodily chemistry at work.

Mentioning about girls, I just don't know what's wrong with my fate of relation with them.
I can't seem to break through their 'pass' condition, despite the numerous tries to make a simple contact of saying 'hi'. Oh I meant on social networks.

I feel strange, as if I looked intimidating to them. Do I look intimidating in the first place? Friends told me no, but I am still unsure. Well, everyone has only their face being the only 'value' on the Internet. It's not like our faces have thoughts written on it.

I haven't had a new girl-friend since my polytechnic years. I think I've mentioned this before somewhere, but it's always great to state it again.
I just feel imbalanced, knowing that my social circle contains 90% of guy friends.
Not that there's any wrong with that but I guess it's one of my goal to balance it out.

I should just live without goals, making life minimal.
Thoughts are just passer-by, they shouldn't exist.
Thoughts are the main problem which triggers most of our fight or flight response.

On a side story regarding my time table update,
I have finally been allocated all the slots, not really something I want but it'll do.
What's better is the news from my MA1521 lecturer saying that we are allowed to join any tutorial group there is, just making sure that attendance is marked.
Which means I can join my friends instead of rushing back and forth in venue on Tuesday.